Jelshiyaverse

If there is anything that will take you places that you wanna reach in life, it's nothing but consistency. Expecting overnight results is making a fool of oneself. Continuous effort is what yields the fruit of labour. If you act like a monkey for ten years, you will be a damn good monkey by the end of it(not asking you'll to act like a monkey lol) .   It is the same with anything in life. If you wanna be a guitarist, play the guitar every day. Even if it is for just a few minutes, do it regularly. As days pass you will see a progressive change in your music than when you started playing it.   If you wanna be a writer, write every day. Be it a page or a phrase, do it without a break every day. As days pass you will have started thinking more than you did when you initially began and you will see a visible change in your style of writing. If you wanna build your muscles, exercise regularly. The muscles are not gonna pop in a day. It requires continuous work. If you wanna lose/ ga

Soothing breeze caressing the face Right through the back of the brain Eyes roll back in calmness Lost in a different world amidst the noises Silhouette of a hill over the horizon Green pastures a treat to the eyes Waves of wind over the yellow gems of rice Sparrows flying across the sky Leaves rustling Birds humming Crows cawing Clouds floating in the sun's red sea While hiding behind it  For us not to see.

 Life is a quagmire It's fun in your childhood Irritating in your adulthood Slippery in your old-age.

 Petrified  Unable to move a muscle  Neither voluntarily   Nor involuntarily  Like sometimes in the dreams You try hard to walk  But couldn't take a step  Like the feet is stuck to the ground Like the body is tied to the bed  It REFUSES to move  And So does the Heart.

 Crazy what a year can do to a person 365 days- each on edge Stepping a nanometer back each day Slowly becoming bigger strides- backwards Now that at a safe distance Just the thought of the height  Should've fallen from Makes you sick Now from what seems to be a safe distance stands Her Looking at the past Her Wishing to let her know that  Everything's gonna be okay Yet, unrecognisable in many ways "Is that even me?" "Yes" "Not anymore." God saw what you didn't Broke you only to make you For he has carved you in his palm He saves you from every harm.

Anger is one of the easiest ways to channel any other emotion into. Heartbreak, betrayal or any negative emotion for that matter, it's way easier to just stay angry rather than deal with it.  It might make you feel better for sometime but not in the longer term.  Plus on the downside, you get health issues that you didn't ask for - headaches, anxiety, high blood pressure etc. It's healthier to go through the emotion and be done with it than be angry for years and lose your peace.  I hear ya, easier said than done but it is much better if you see the effect of it years down the road.  There is no power in anger!  The only person that it makes miserable is YOU!  There's also a time-tested proverb in Tamil that goes, "ஆத்திரக் காரனுக்கு புத்திமட்டு"  that translates to anger does not let a man think straight.  You tend to make rash decisions when you are angry.  The bottom line is that anger never did anyone any good. NEVER!  Try not to hold on to it, even if not

 Every dip of the quill Flows directly from the heart Driven by the yearning For just a look  Lingering stares across the crowd And nothing more Lips remains sealed while The eyes speak a million words Looking for a place less suspicious Living for the gentle stroke  While the letter change hands  Hurrying to leave before They were found to be lost Hearing the beloved's voice in the head As the eyes sees the words  Grinning from ear to ear  As eyes fill with joyful tears  Reading it over and over again  Till it is by heart That parchment there is the lifeline Until next time.

 I see you when I close my eyes I see you with the stars in the night I live with you in my mind I fall for you everytime I look to you for comfort Although you are the reason behind  We speak the same tongue While others wonder where it came from Expertised in putting on a façade  Hiding you behind every graceful smile Did I let you stay longer than I should've? Did I lose my control to you?  Now you refuse to let me go .

C hoked up emotions raging out into the  O blivious mind, that keeps M anipulating itself into believing that the P TSDs are gone L ittle did she know  I nside her heart was a bubbling sea of frozen ice waiting to erupt  C hasing behind lost shadows  A ppetizing with the tremorous  T rauma taut tightly around the fingers  E luding moments of time and D elulus of being healed.

 Disappearing into the wild night With no trail left behind And a bottle of wine Never was anything fine. Dripping red all along Shattered glass falling down  Living heart disowned For the messed up mind to take on .

 Getting tired after a tiresome day is normal. Getting tired from absolutely doing nothing is also normal. Humans lol. Even, being tired of being tired is kind of normal- in a context.  But why does no one talk about the mental exhaustion?  Not just that you are tired and drained mentally, But that your brain is fried beyond it's limit.  It fails to comprehend even a single word anyone's saying. Even a single thought takes up so much of your energy and you're just sitting there with an empty mind and a RBF.  There's not much you could really do about it. Just take a nap and know that you're going to be fine.  It's okay! 

We might have a hundred plans regarding our studies, career, marriage and life in general. You might not even have thought about outside that little bubble. But God knows when to change things. Things escalate within a blink of an eye and you are standing there with something that you thought you will never get or deserve. He knows when to give what in our lives. We just have to be patient. He can make miracles happen. He can move mountains in a second for you. He will make you the cornerstone of his empire. All you gotta do is keep fighting with faith for  God's way is not Man's way!

"Row Row Row your boat  Gently down the stream Merrily Merrily Merrily Merrily  Life is but a dream!" You can stop singing now lol. This might have seemed like just a trivial nursery rhyme, but if you look into it a little deeper it has got most of the life's philosophies covered. Our life is a boat ride, some might have a coracle and some might have a titanic, regardless it's all in the same water. The water current differs from time to time. It is not always calm neither is it always stormy. Sometimes it might turn you over completely and that's what makes life adventurous. I mean, what's life without a little drama. The way you pull the oars shows your control over the boat. But in the end, it is all just a dream. Like how January went on forever and February blinked away in a second, life is unpredictable but interesting. 

In this fast-running world, we have no idea what we're doing or where we're going but the thing is, no one has time for anything.  "Sorry. I couldn't make it. I was busy and didn't have time." "Oops. I'm busy. You guys carry on." EXCUSES! EXCUSES!! EXCUSES!!!  But what do we plan on accomplishing by just giving excuses? Its easy to give excuses and not finish your project on time- even though you are on an impossible deadline (definitely not based on real events lol) but sucking it up that it was your fault that you wasted an entire semester without doing the project and procrastinated till the last date, takes much of your energy and courage.  You can easily play the victim card - "I was sick", "My grandpa died", "My laptop lost the data" and whatnot, get creative as possible- or pull yourself together and find the means to finish the work. Its easy to give excuses for not meeting up with your loved ones for lunch a

 I don't know if it is just me or the entire Gen Z is cursed or something. They say we are "prone" to depression but I  don't think so. It's more like it has become a part of our lives. We are used to living with it. It's hard for the elders to relate to. We can't explain it either. We ourselves don't know what we're dealing with sometimes. We are into so much exposure that we don't handle so great. Everyday I see at least more than one story about depression and stuff that someone puts up . We have no idea what we are gonna do next or with our lives.  At the same time, I think we are the strongest generation ever. We can handle things ourselves without help. We hit rock bottom and find our own way back even without letting anyone know. Sometimes even our parents are not aware of the state of mind we are in. NO MATTER WHAT GOES WRONG WE KEEP UP THE FIGHT AND WILL CONTINUE TO DO SO.

 As a writer I feel like writing in first person is the most vulnerable thing a writer can do. I always write in third person so that people don't think that I write about me. This felt like something I needed to write as 'I'. So Here goes nothing: people know me as the tall girl with big eyes and long hair that I once had. They either think that I am confident or a bitch, both judged by the way I walk. Have received compliments almost to an extent that it feels like people don't actually mean it sometimes. BUT all this is just a facade. Seldom does anyone realise that there is a scared traumatised girl behind the mask pretending to be the strongest. All the trauma and endless pretending easily leads to insecurities. Being called beautiful isn't gonna stop you from comparing yourself to someone that the person you loved left you for. It makes you question your own worth. Though you know it in your heart that you did not deserve any of the shit that you went through,